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This Is A Sorry Excuse For A Life.. I hate the internet. No, you're right, I'd die without it, but every fucking time I try to go to a site, it bumps me off.. Fuck it. I'm crying. I'm such a loser. You know what started the crying? My dad asked me on Sunday or...Yeah, it was Sunday...Anyway, he and my mom ask if I'd be happy with a Cavalier instead of an El Camino, and I was like, "You don't want me to have an El Camino, do you?" I hear, "No, that's not it, we just don't want to put all this effort and money into looking into an El Camino if you're not going to be happy with it." Wll, tell me this...If I wasn't going to be happy with an El Camino, then why the hell would I put so much effort and time into leaving quite unsubtle hints around that I'll die if I don't get an El Camino? Why would I cuss every time I saw one that wasn't for sale? Why would I talkabout them every god damned waking second of my pathetic life?! So Dad calls about the one in Minnesota and the one in Michigan, so it's all fine and dandy. We make plans to go look. Now he come sto me and says, "How m\badly do you want this El Camino in Minnesota?" So I told him I thought that it sounds like he doesn't want to go look at it, (and at that point I was trying not to start crying right in front of him) and he insisted that it's not that, but that he talked to this guy that belongs to a car club, and the guy told him about two El Caminos, and he looked at one today (WHAT THE FUCK?! HE DIDN'T TELL ME!!!!) and that it's awesome, but it's $6,500. But he said there's another one that's not as expensive, and he didn't look at it yet. But he said that he was thinking that if we called and told the guy that we couldn't make it up there this weekend, and the next two weekends are honestly busy, that we go up in a month if it's not sold, and they'll be more desperate to get rid of it. So I highly doubt that I'll ever get my El Camino, kids. I have a feeling that they (the parental units) are trying to screw me out of my car. And god damn them for sending me mixed signals...One second they say not to waste time on a car unless it's one I want (so they're saying not to look unless it's an El Camino) and then the next they say I should consider everything. Well, I'm sorry, I can't handle this shit...and it's not all just the car...I still haven't told anyone but Nicole that I'm bi, and it's fucking hurting me. God damn this place. Fuck life, fuck people, and most of all, fuck....fuck everything! |